1. |
apple sauce
00:53
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i spilled my apple sauce
and now i'm sad
now i'm sad
now i'm sad
i spilled my apple sauce
and now i'm sad
i'm sad
i wish i wish i wish i wish
i had a good dad had a good dad had a good dad
my dad
is always mad
always mad
always mad
always mad
my dad my dad my dad
is always mad
my mommy says theres a point to my pain
that i have something to gain
that i'll learn and earn my way up,
broken cup on the ground,
apple sauce spilling out
i spilled my apple sauce and now i'm sad
my dad is mad
mad mad mad
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2. |
fly
01:09
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today i
just wanted to die
so i lived
today i
just wanted to die
just wanted to die
i thought of flowers and cold skin
i thought of all the things i will never win
i thought of all my sins
so many piled up
most lust
i’m a nasty slut thats all i am
and all i will ever be
thank you parents
thank you me
today i just
wanted to die
so i lived
today i just
wanted to die
today
i
thought about killing a fly
i didn’t
i closed my eyes
and imagined i was that fly
only survival on my mind
it would be so unkind
to kill that fly
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3. |
brain pain
00:56
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rotting and swelling
rotting and swelling
rotting and swelling
wish i could be selling my body away
1 kidney GONE
1 lung GONE
1 brain 1 brain please let me keep my brain
i deserve to be alive and to feel this pain
brain oh brain
Please let me keep my brain
for i deserve to feel alive yes i deserve this pain
shave off my mane
cut off all the dead
i wanna give head
he said she said they said
i said
i wanna feel the dead parts of my body being cut away
please oh please do let me have a say
brain oh brain please let me keep my brain
if i may
rotted and swelling
rotted and swelling
rotted and swelling
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4. |
blu lipz
01:52
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blue lipstick smells like the bruises she left
on my brain
at first i felt blest
i mistook my pain for love
stress test
pump my heart and make me run
put pain through my veins and laugh as my lungs
deflate
run run run i run from you
you oh you
you made me feel so blue
blue lipstick was
fun and vibrant
now its
done and migrant
moving from my lips to anothers
breaking hearts
creating lovers
cold and weary my soul weeps
blue lipstick looks like the kiss on my cheek
that you left when you decided to sweep
me off my feet and create a bleak
tundra in my soul, beep beep
i got a call,
not from you,
you never call,
you never do
blue lipstick stains my favorite shirt
now i’m always on the alert
moving from my lips to anothers
breaking hearts creating lovers
i loved you so,
don’t you know?
i loved you so
i don’t know if you know
i loved you so
please please go
get out of my life
get out of my heart
get off of my lips and away from my art
i make it about you
i think you know
beep beep
they’re restarting my heart
stress test
reset
fix me fix me
mend the holes you left in my body
not you, not you, no never you
you’re an unwelcome guest
in my mind in my life in my thoughts in my strifes
beep beep
i rest
i digest
i sigh
lips no longer blue
i do not want to die
leaving bruises
abandoning muses
using goddesses made from marble
abusing eve, drown her in sorrow
blue lipstick stains my favorite shirt
now i’m always on the alert
moving from my lips to another
breaking hearts creating lovers
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5. |
safety pinned skin
02:52
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i want to sleep forever
in your dreams no one can touch you
whatsoever
their fingers will just pass through your soft skin
a layer out of true
composed of stardust and sin,
a skewed angle of view,
you will never lose but you’ll never win
dreams caress and kiss my soft flesh
safety pinned skin
composed of stardust and sin,
no i don’t trust men
no i don’t trust men
smoke fills my brain
acid rain acid rain
smoke fills my brain
acid rain acid rain
you are a dark cloud of green and yellow
the opposite of mellow
green and yellow
burning the common fellow
green and yellow
safety pinned skin composed of stardust and sin
no i don’t trust men
no i don’t trust men
you are the dark in the tunnel
the suffering thats subtle
a body builders weakest muscle
you are trouble,
a struggle,
a desperate shovel,
putting bodies away
under dirt
under earth
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6. |
family disappointment
01:44
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we all make our moms cry we all make our moms cry
don’t look at my phone don’t look in my eyes
you’ll see how much i want to die
don’t look at my phone don’t look in my eyes
please dont cry
i wanted to protect you
and you wanted to protect me too
cold hands warm tears
lyrical fears
the right key? the right note? i walk a fine line,
a tightrope
if i am to fall do not you cry
if i am to fall and if i am to die
i would rise from the dead
and go about my days
get it through your head
we all make our moms cry
we all make our moms cry
how do you deal with her tears on yr hands?
we all make our moms cry
we all make our moms cry
how do you deal with her tears on yr hands?
man oh man
i wear black lipstick and sit in the sand
i look at the moon
with closed eyes and an open soul
you didn’t turn the light off
did you leave the oven on?
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